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Christmas and Chill!!!

If I was told last Christmas that next Christmas would be the exact opposite, perhaps I wouldn’t have believed it.

Well, it does make perfect sense that Christmas is the happiest day of the year. Besides falling in love, I am still alive and I get to share best wishes with family I haven’t heard from in over two years. Heartfelt! 🙂

Though I cant share the entirety of my life with them, I am beyond grateful for the short break from the tension, anxiety and fear that for the most part of this year has been the sole reason for not wanting to live. Well, I am alive and well.

I also went to church this morning, something I hadn’t done in months and little had I known that this would add the perfect touch of magic and blessing that every Christmas we so earnestly crave.

I felt anxious walking into the church – like I always feel about taking on life – but every moment turned out just fine. Being absent for such a long time warrants more gracefulness, as with my family. And yes! I cried!

My pastor’s son reminded me of special hearts, loving hears=ts, dear people… just like his father. This guy is the reason why my pastor is so passionate about love, tolerance and acceptance. So, I want to thank both of them for being the beautiful human beings who they are.

Anyways just wanted to check in and wish everyone the best for the rest of the day!!!

3 Replies to “Christmas and Chill!!!”

  1. Allikat says:

    Kev I’m glad that you had a good Christmas! I remember when my holiday last year wasn’t that great and I, too, wouldn’t have believed someone if they had told me that the next Christmas was going to be how it was this year. I cried this year too, but this time it was tears of joy. I’m really happy that church was a good experience for you too. I’m proud of you for putting your fear to the side and still walking into the church house. Keep that in mind that you were able to get through that fear, that way next time it creeps up on ya, you will have the confidence to push it aside again!

  2. Kevin A. says:

    Thanks Ally, last holiday was really great. I didn’t expect it… just a few days before I was thinking about boycotting Christmas altogether but it turned out to be one of the best holidays I’ve ever had. Hopefully next Christmas will be even better.

  3. VRuiz says:

    Wow, your holiday was everything! I’m happy to hear that you took a chance and a step out on hope. Because you have been so open to things, it seems like it’s all falling into place. I’m so happy for you and I wish you nothing but luck!

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