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Losing someone

Last week marked the one year aniversary of my best guy friends twin brothers passing and yesterday was their 21st birthday. He has been on my mind a lot lately and it has deffinetly takin a toll on myself emotionally and my friend. It’s so difficult when you want to be there for someone when they are so far away from you at school. It’s also so hard when you loose someone so young, especially to an overdose. Have you ever lost anyone close to you or had to be there for a friend?

4 Replies to “Losing someone”

  1. Allikat says:

    Hey Courtney.

    I’m really sorry for your loss and the pain you are facing right now. I’m really glad you came on here to talk about it though! I, too, lost someone close to me due to using. I’ve lost 5 people and one of my closest friends is out using so I worry every day for her.

    Im glad you’re sharing about your memories with her and I hope you continue to share them on here. I know you follow my blog so feel free to share it on my blog posts too.

    Have you checked out our resource map for helpful things for you? Would you be interested in a support group for someone who lost a loved one due to addiction? I’d love to be able to help in any way I can.

    For now, keep sharing those good memories and keep them in your heart in mind during this difficult time.

  2. Courtney says:

    Hi Allison,

    Thank you for responding. I think we have connected a few times on here. Our experiences are very similar. Unfortunately, even in recovery, we will still continue to lose close people. I know the feeling of having a friend who is using, especially knowing the end result. For lack of a better phrase, “it’s a tough pill to swallow.” Awareness doesn’t make it easier and acceptance does not make it ok. I love Tasha very much and my heart is literally still so heavy.

    I will look at the resource map. I would definitely be interested in a support group. Let’s get connected if we can, or if possible.

    Thank you again.

  3. Allikat says:

    Hey Courtney!
    You can email me if you’d like at akernan@swrmhb.org if you’d like.
    We have a lot of good resources on our map and I can look into more for grief support and ones specifically for people effected by a passing due to that cause.

    Thanks again for reaching out and coming onto here to talk about what’s going on. I would love to keep hearing about how you are coping. Remember that you are not alone!

  4. Courtney says:

    Great, thank you! I will definitely be in touch. I am getting by. Tasha’s mother is actually having a memorial for her rather than the typical wake/funeral. This is due to financial reasons, but it still feels strange. I cannot stop thinking about her all the time as well as everyone else. It’s hard to “intercept” obsessive thinking. I also recently moved to a different town a few weeks before this happened so my normal meeting routine has been interrupted. It’s so hard. I want to be close to those who I have spent the last five years with. I see them, I do get to meetings out there a few times a week, but dependent on another due to the fact that I don’t have a car right now.

    How are you?

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