For the past 3 years I have had the outlook that staying positive is the best thing. It’s part of my recovery to maintain a positive attitude and too keep looking forward. However, rarely have I felt that I am struggling since then but when I do feel like I am struggling I don’t like to tell people because I think it’s breaks what I have honored and told people for so long. I don’t like to have people see me sad, or struggling because I think it brings the people in my life back to how I “use” to be.
Even though every one struggles and has hard times, I almost feel as though I am not able to express it sometimes. Because I feel turningpointCT is a place I can be honest with, I am having a hard time lately. It isn’t just one thing.. but multiple things. I can feel that I am unhappy with some things in my life and I think that if I change it I will have a lot of upset people in my life. I know I need to do what’s best for me though. It’s just really hard.
Today I just want to be able to talk about my obstacles and not feel like people are going to be upset with me because of it.
I know that feeling. People always used to tell me that I was always smiling and I didn’t want to ever show otherwise. But at the same time I admired people who could just be real and share whatever their emotions were. I’m sorry you’re having a hard time and I hope it gets better. It sounds like you are struggling not just with current obstacles but also with really making changes in your life. I know change is really hard on a personal level anyway, plus you said it might upset people in your life and that obviously makes things so much harder. I guess I just want to encourage you to do what you need to do because if you know it’s important, then it will be worth it in the end, even if people get upset. And I’m sending you good vibes hoping that whoever it is you’re afraid is going to be upset will react well! If you want to share more details here, we’re listening. 🙂
I can get where you’re at COMPLETELY! I’ve been feeling exactly the same way lately. It’s so frustrating and sometimes overwhelming for me to keep that positive attitude! Lately when i’ve been down, i’ve been trying to do SOMETHING for myself, ANYTHING. Even if it’s just something simple like watching an episode of one of my shows-completely alone. But I’ve been so busy lately I havent even had the chance to do little things.
You’re my friend on fb, reach out to me! I’d love to be there for you to vent!
For now, take some self care time because if you don’t, it’ll only get worse
Thank you both, so much. After having a 3 day weekend, I have been able to do a lot of self reflecting and self love for myself. Although a lot is still going on, I am able to remain calm and think about myself first and foremost.
Thank you so much for the support. I really appreciate it.
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