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    • #22505
      Allison KernanAllison Kernan
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      Hi Turningpointct!! 🙂 Happy Holidays to everyone!

      As this year and this DECADE comes to an end, I thought I’d give a little update filled with cat pictures 🙂

       

      Before the cat pictures, I must just say that I am really feeling the energy shift of going into a whole new decade. I was reflecting the other day about this past year alone and it was full of bittersweet moments. One thing I’ve realized and finally came to fully believe is that I am worthy of love and respect – and that I am allowed to make better changes for myself, regardless of how it affects others. I am committed to making this next decade be years that I enforce boundaries, advocate for myself, and follow convictions I have in my heart – again, regardless of how it affects others.

      In 2019, some pretty amazing things happened:

       

      • I broke free from a religion that was starting to pull me away from God, not closer. I found a church that is safe for me and I feel as if I’m re-learning who God is to me.

       

      • I moved into an apartment with my best friend. We’ve created a safe place to call home together.

       

      • Speaking of the apartment, we obviously had to get a critter! Meet Pebbles!

       

      • Pebbles was sad that Jen and I worked long hours … so then there were two! Meet BamBam!

       

      • They became best pals after some hissing matches 😉

       

      • And even partners in crime!


       

       

       

       

       

       

       

       

       

       

       

       

       

       

      • This year, I graduated college!! I started with the intention of just simply starting ONE class. Two years later I have a certificate and a degree.

       

      • I was humbled this year by being recognized for awards, traveling the US for presentations, meeting some of my biggest inspirations, and being included in so many beautiful community events.

       

       

       

      • I started a new job! I’m working for the agency that I received treatment from – Recovery Network of Programs!! I went from client .. to employee !! I can’t explain how much I love working for this agency and how honored I am to be surrounded by such incredible leaders, coworkers, and colleagues. And of course I just had to get involved with anything and everything I can. I joined the book club and the outreach committee!
                  

       

      • This year I had to let go and grieve friendships, relationships, trauma, and much more. I had some deep wounds created and old scars ripped wide open. Although some scars are going to be permanent; I must remember that they are still healed and shift my perception from loss to gain. I gained new friendships, new insight, new healing, and most importantly; I found a new sense of worthiness that I have been yearning for my whole life.

       

      • On December 2nd 2019 I celebrated FOUR YEARS in recovery!! Four years I haven’t turned to some form of opiate as a solution to whatever I was feeling, thinking, or doing. I don’t have even have the words for the gratitude of my recovery today. Can’t wait to do it another year !

       

      • I also have been building something special with someone special. Eric, you are such an incredible person and I’m so grateful to be your girlfriend. Every day you teach me something, love a part of me I didn’t expect anyone to, make me laugh, listen to my every word and thought, and allow me to be me unapologetically. You marvel me daily and I’m looking forward to continuing our journey together!

      So that is my yearly wrap-up! I can’t wait to read about yours and your plans for the next year. Remember to celebrate the small successes – even if that just means waking up today.

    • #22509
      Luz.FelizLuz.Feliz
      Participant

      Ally,

      I am so happy to read about your successes this year! Thanks for sharing your amazing journey with us and I am so glad and proud of how far you have come. Keep up the great work, you are such an inspiration 🙂

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