The Rock in the Road
Anxiety has always been a huge rock in the road for me, especially during the past few covid years. It’s made it extremely difficult to do a lot of things, even things such as interacting with folks in social settings, and making or answering phone calls.
However, 2023 has been a very successful year for me; I feel like I’ve accomplished more this year than I have in the past 3 years combined. I’ve become a lot more capable of pushing back against my anxiety in order to progress in life. I’ve learned a lot of coping skills from others, and have even created some of my own, that have been a big help.
I’ve traveled by myself for the first time, moved into my own place, and started driving again. These, along with many more, are things I know I would have been very unlikely to do even last year. So being able to check off so many goals in the span of one year has made me feel very proud of myself. I even signed up for an event in town, which would have been way more unlikely last year than the first three things I mentioned in this paragraph. In fact, I’d go as far as to say signing up for social events wasn’t even a consideration, while the other things were.
Something that’s been a huge help to me is changing my environment more. During my school years, besides going to classes during the week, I did next to nothing else. There were rare occasions where I’d go to the gym, but it wasn’t enough to make a physical or mental difference. Even up to this past summer, I wasn’t changing my environment enough, and this caused me to have a huge creative block. And as someone who prides themselves on their creativity, this made me fear for my future. Now that I’ve been going outside my home more, the creative block has decreased significantly.
At this point in time, I’m at a place where I feel content with life. I’m hoping to keep up this momentum as we transition out of 2023 and head into 2024. For now, though, I wish you all a happy December!