I had to think really hard about this. I’m still young and as I look back on my life for reference points to see how far I’ve come I only come up with feelings of guilt rather than strength and assurance. But now, at the pinnacle of youth (so to speak), this is not a time for pity. It’s a time to look ahead not behind!
I look forward to the day when college rolls around to start, to those days I tick off on my calendar and I can breathe a sigh of relief saying, “This isn’t so bad!” Then suddenly, I can shake hands with the dean of my program and have a degree of psychology in hand carrying new tools on my belt to apply not only to myself but towards other encounters. I look forward to the day when I won’t have to question my future -be it my job or my personal affairs- and I will be content to live and be okay in what I am doing, in who I am as a whole. I look forward to the day when my health overall improves (physically as well as mentally), when I can tell my psychiatrist I no longer need my medications and throw them all in the garbage because you know what? I can do this ON MY OWN. I look forward to the day when I can drive and not panic after only a few miles. I look forward to the day when I can wear my non-binary emblem with pride rather than disgrace and fear. I look forward to the day when I can be open with people instead of confrontational or wary to the point of isolation. I… Look forward to settling down with someone who will be as happy and proud to share their life with me as I am with them.
TurningPointCT.org was developed by young people in Connecticut who are in recovery from mental health and substance use issues. We know what it’s like to feel alone, stressed, worried, sad, and angry. We’ve lived through the ups and downs of self-harm, drugs and alcohol, and the struggle to find help.
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